- bronwyn: *pushes all of my clothes off of the bed while looking right at me*
- bronwyn: so... i put your clothes over there for now...
You kiss me with your mouth wide open like you’re not afraid of swallowing poison. I taste the good and bad in you and want them both. We call this bravery.
weeeell, i had the nice advantage of a buffer year in a dorm first, before living alone in a city. even now, i live with bronwyn and two other wonderful and warm girls (eloutre and heathereme). however i can still tell you about my experience this year - it’s lonely sometimes. sometimes, i get really sad walking around, even just the 5 minutes to the grocery store. we live on a very busy street and there are always people which is both comforting and scary. there are so many people, but rarely do we talk to each other. but, everything is also right there. i am a quick walk from hundreds of restaurants, and a subway from hundreds more. and i’m a bus ride away from smaller cities and parks when i need to recharge. toronto is not the city i will live in forever, but it will always have a place in my heart, for its guts, for its unabashed nature, for the people and the way and the rush and the noise. remember to give yourself time to recharge and time in your room watching movies of your childhood. spend time exploring - challenge yourself to eat somewhere or go somewhere new every week. try and enjoy the art scene, weird restaurants and shops, things like that that can’t survive in small towns. surround yourself with warm people, kind people, people who feel like home. there is so much opportunity with a city, so much to see and do, and it can be dizzying and scary but god is it free. best of luck to you, angel, and if i ever come to montreal i hope to see you there, laughing and living and thriving.
today was my birthday and bronwyn is the kindest and best and she has a whole weekend of love planned and I love my friends and I’m thankful for the life that I have, god, I am. I’m thankful for all of the good and messy and gory and wonderful parts of it, I swear. I’m 18 years old and I feel as thought I’m older than I want and I’m wiser than I could be and I’m happy most of the time and that’s so much more than I could ask for.
bronwyn n i are moved into our apartment, pictures are coming soon. we’re launching an exciting project in the next few weeks too. lots of things are happening, and I’m not used to this home yet and it’s a little scary n nervous sometimes but I’m so so lucky for the stuff I’ve got. bronwyn stayed up the first night until my breathing relaxed so I wouldn’t be up alone. we went and got coffee today and she made me a smoothie and tried to fix it when I didn’t like it and she makes sure I drink enough water and she’s so kind and smart. I’m trying to relax and appreciate this new part of life with her, here together in our bed in the big city like we always dreamed of.