happiest song you can think of? like if the happiest moments of your life were a montage, what would they be set to?
cool thing: bronwyn is really smart, like way smarter than me, but she’s not pretentious at all. she hates when people only want to watch weepy indie movies or the critically acclaimed ones all the time. she’s smart enough to get all of it and everything but she likes to watch romcoms and goofy comedies too. she never corrects people on dumb grammar things or puts people down subtly to make them feel stupid. she never makes fun of people’s bodies or appearance or anything in front of them or behind their back either. but i just think it’s cool that she’s so smart that she doesn’t feel threatened by people and that shows in an over flow of kindness. some people are moderately intelligent, but they feel the need to over compensate with pretension. she’s smart and she doesn’t mind if other people are smarter or think they are or are better in different areas. she didn’t like ts elliot. she doesn’t like anything because she’s “supposed to”. i’m working on being like that.
i just teared up somethin’ awful. this is the kindest thing, thank you so much. i’ll be looking out for your luck.
im so sad all the time everything sucks and i have all this intense anger at myself and its so tiring to keep feeling so shitty
oh gosh! it was such a heavy mix and so much happened and so many different emotions! i was sooo so so nervous before i came to school, i thought FOR SURE that my roommate was going to actually hate me. i thought i would hate my classes, i thought i would fail. but here we are, i’m living with my roommate again, but off campus this year with bronwyn and another amazing girl, i loved my classes and ended with an A average and a second year scholarship!
things have a way of working themselves out. that is definitely not to say that there weren’t struggles - i had late late nights writing essays, many mondays crying to bronwyn about how hard things were, homesickness, loneliness. but i fell more in love. i found out new things about myself. i learned so much. i found friends who i think will be in my life forever.
you are holy and good and warm - you will find friendship, you will succeed. remember to stay kind and soft and messy. stay vulnerable. these experiences are so so important, and there is so much to see and do. some of my best times are the thursday all nighters drinking and walking to get pizza at 3am for sure, but some are slow wednesday mornings in my room with my best friend, just listening to music and hanging out. stay present, don’t over think it, take each experience as it comes. enjoy the bad with the good. make some dumb decisions, make some responsible ones. do your best. you’re going to kill it.
shoutout to sam (smallerfox) for being the sweetest peach, for thinking of me when she got an iphone, for generally being a complete beam of light in this world. thinkin’ about your greatness tonight, honey, and all of the glory and good you bring to this earth. you deserve the best of everything, of every single thing.
i find all genders attractive but i got the cutest girl in the world soOOO.